The girl with broken shoes…
Past 3am, I’ve slept the entire day so here I am now batting with bouts of my insomnia… my cable is still out so I sat staring at my computer again. Monday, I need to ready myself for the lipstick jungle again…
I went rummaging for my notebook and organizer, went back and forth to my car, I couldn’t find where my house cleaner put some of my things… as I was scavenging from bags to another, I keep finding stuff that I’ve forgotten already, I opened my shoe rack and noticed that I keep using the same pair of shoes… I went through some boxes and happily found some pairs that I forgot already… one, two, three, and it goes on… wow, it amazed me that I piled up quite a few. I am a woman after all… some broken waiting to be sewed up, some just dusting away cuz I got fed up with it, some so tattered from endless use… it’s funny, how a certain style can define the kind of woman you are. Mine, usually black, browns and beige, all with thin heels, inexpensive but can be spiced up with different clothes, and only 2 pairs of sneakers that I hate to use. ‘You are so feminine,’ someone told me last night. I never really see myself as ‘so feminine’, but looking at the shoes, I guess there’s some truth to it but I think it’s the tough look feminine.
My friend and I went window shopping few weeks back and as we restrain ourselves from buying she pointed at a shoe, ‘Oh my god, it says Tatum all over it.’ I laughed at her, black pumps with a strap that wraps to the calves. A little sado-masochist. Haha, yeah the ‘do not mess with me, I will kill you with my shoe’ look. It pained me to walk away not buying it.
I noticed that every time I buy a pair that I like, I end up using it for an entire season, resulting to raggedy. Night after night, tripping and dancing those happy feet… day after day booting the road away. It reminded me of what Angel told me, ‘You know, love is like using a pair of shoe, use it much and it gets really tattered, you need to rest it some time so that it never gets old.’ The thought made me smile… yes it is true… tomorrow I will have some fixed… tomorrow, let’s rest our hearts first…