That’s where I’ve been…
The weather is a traitor.
Woke up shivering from the cold breeze, I curled up still aching for rest and sleep, my head needs to reboot from the toils I put my self in… but the alarm just keep screaming beside my ear… work work work… ‘yeah take me away…’
I thought it would be raining the entire day so I decided to wear boots, scarf and jacket, after I got to my meeting, ‘dad’ was teasing, ‘winter wonderland?’ the sun was heating up the surrounding by then.
I got back to the office with a bad headache, one by one, shedding the cover ups… cold again… may be that’s how an egg feels, boiled, cooled off then reheated again… I’m freakin battered…
Went around the mall today to buy stuff for my shoot… ‘Puzzles!’ I screamed one day while puffing on some cigs, I startled my officemate. Yup, puzzles it is. I got a 300-piece puzzle to use for my shoot then will paint it over the weekend. I’m on my computer while my officemates put it together. They keep complaining as they endlessly put it piece by piece… I was just waiting, they would have killed me if I got the 1000 pieces haha. It’s crazy, but I think they enjoyed staring at Winnie the Pooh, Tigger and Eyore…
I’m beat for the day. I got home chomping on my favorite dish for the month. God I felt like an ‘er-er’ pigging out, compensates for the lack of sleep… I rested and watched TV for 2 hours as my cousin dressed up to go out for the night… I’m envious, I don’t think my body can still handle a night out for now… one, two, three… my cousin went back and forth to her room, ‘Hala!’ she startled me as I reached for my laptop bag, ‘you’re opening your computer again! Tsk, I told you to sleep already…’ I smiled at her while I catch myself on my habit… ‘yes me and my girlfriend,’ I whispered as I push the ‘on’ button. ‘yes, it’ll do, it’ll do for now, I’m happier with you…’ I just realized how good it feels to nudge emotion by the corner for a while, it’s freeing. Yup, taking things easy. To an old friend, I think I learned a lot from you, you should have met me when I wasn’t broken, may be we could still be laughing together…
Fink is lulling me in a trance, ‘don’t cheat yourself out of love, cause you know thats a bigger sin, to never know such sweetness, never know completeness, but thats where i’ve been…’