The gems in us...

I’m so happy last night, I had fruitful conversations with my favorite gentle giant ;) I love talking to people more mature than me, makes me see things in a different light, but I am happy that I can sing along with their music, ‘unique’ he said, that’s what you are, you should be stingy with giving yourself, in my head, funny maybe I’m just autistic hahaha…but he was laughing the entire time cuz I keep on telling them the words that comes from my mouth, he was saying, ‘you do not need any wisdom from me, you know these things, you are your own self help! You’re so full of life and energy, someone needs to tame you!…’ I was laughing…

Tame me? Then my energy will be lost, silenced, caged, that is not what I need, not again I said…I am fluttering with heights, flying and dancing under the grayest of cloud…and I’m laughing, smiling like a kid who just discovered that butterflies are beautiful to touch…but butterflies, their wings can sting your eye…

Life, so many thing to discover in it but it has no guarantee…I was so excited to list down the openings of my windows that I want to put in art…another friend showed me a passage about windows…I am always in awe with windows, taken by the secrets that it holds under the blinds…people, it says, are like closed windows, it shows different views, looking at them once will not show you the entire thing, once they open you can see the dirt, the laundry and the crooked walls that surrounds it, look again and you can also see the wonderful things…the gems in all of us…some of it are precious, some as black and bland as coal, its up to you where you want to peep and keep…but as the gentle giant said 'like any other gemstone, let people search for it. Let them work hard to earn it, so that anyone who will hold it will treasure, protect and keep out of harms way'…when its gone its gone, you drop it and it will break, you let go of it in a ravine and it will be hard for you to get it back…

Ratatatata, me again, talk and talk, so many words Tatum, I think I have to silence myself for a while cuz I cannot sleep with all these things in my head…ugh, I saw the sun shine again through my room window…not again I said…I am so tired…’contain it, contain it!’…god I was scooping out everything in me and hugging myself so that it won’t burst…sleep little child, there’s so many more tomorrow…