The Child in us…

I saw so many laughters and smiles these past days and it fills so many gaps in me…happiness of others always heals my aching soul…that’s me, healed, no more bandages, no more soreness, funny how some of the people around me worry for me when I am stronger than most of them, a green that bloomed in the thickest of mud, that’s me…’a self-help book’ a friend once told me…I wish it can be shared for everybody…

Sadness, still everywhere, I saw the tears that my friends shared with me tonight, I wish I can take it out for them and help them the way I fixed myself…but healing one’s soul can always just come from the person…I can only lend my ears and time, to be the crying shoulder and a friend…

I see now different shades of the child in us, the little things that makes one laugh and cry…lost kids, that’s what we are, yet we try to live maturely in our fast paced time…A friend told me how EMPTY she feels now, I told her that is the worse possible feeling one can experience, its living in limbo, stuck in a moment without purpose and goal…I was there before but I always rise above it, I wish she can as well, I wish I can hold her hand so that she will not drown, but a negative energy so powerful can crash me as well…a child, I am the same…I wish I can be her flame, an angel this time for someone else, but its different the way she views things…only she can help herself…and I believe she would…

To BELIEVE, that’s one thing we shouldn’t let go…life is not a fairytale, it’s in us to make it look like it is…

Today, another piece of me is given back…sa anghel na aking tinalikuran, muling nagbalik ang aking balintataw…ngunit iba na ang ihip ng aking hangin, hindi na ganun sa dating pusong nais angkinin…hindi na sa kanya ang aking tingin, ngunit sa sarili at sa mundo, ang nakaraan ay isang parte na lamang ng magandang ala-ala…ala-ala, masarap lumikha ng mga bagong pahina…naisip ko, isa rin syang batang ligaw, humiling sa buwan ng hiram na liwanag, ngunit ako ang napaso at nalunod sa kanyang ibang sigaw…buntunghininga…kahapon, isinisisi ko ang pagnanakaw nya ng puso sa iba, mali ang kanyang ibang paniniwala, sa mga taong sumakit sa kanya, tinatangka nyang itama ang mga bagay na gamit ang panibagong mali…

…ang batang isip sa kanya, sa atin…sanay mabigyan ng gabay, hindi galing sa iba pang tao, ngunit sa sarili…ganyan lamang ang dapat…