My World…

I was talking to my friend online, we were chatting about details in my life now, I was telling him about my realizations when I was with him the other night…he told me about my other friends from the magazine industry talking about my love life and asking if I was ok already, I laughed and sighed, It’s funny why they all talked about my love life and how concern they were…its because they saw the gradiation of happiness and sadness in me, the ups and down, the excitement, god, Tatum is always their source of ‘dramathon sa hapon’…they hate it when I’m in my rut, my escape, that is when I am obsessed with women, because they lose the ‘me’ they’ve grown to love…it feels so good to be surrounded by these amazing people who cares for me…

My editor sat down with me today and asked about my words with regards to love, she was amused by how I talked and see things through…she said, ‘Wow, dear the things you say are like things in a movie…’ I was laughing…yes, my life, my stories, my beliefs, my flaws, my antics, my friends, the characters in my world, they are worth a million pages of beautiful prose, of a movie script with thousands of bad and new beginnings…and they are treasures to behold…they are me…the gemstones inside my window, and I am so lucky to be part of them…I told my friend,’ you know, I am so lucky to have you guys, I said, I am selfish, I will not share you guys with any of them!’, he was laughing, he mentioned something about the separation of the church and the states, that love life should be the same, of friends and lovers…I said, ‘let them be the church, and we the state, cuz I do not believe in the church,’ we were laughing…’yes’, he said, you should always have an anchor back, somewhere you can return to…like home, they are my home, I belong to them and I know I am always safe with them…yes that’s it, they are my SANCTUARY…oh, I love epiphanies…

I am so excited today, I called up a fellow artist, I told him about my plans, and he was willing to help me cuz he believed in me…for people to appreciate you in more ways than one, it’s a heavenly feeling…I’m so excited to pick up brushes and paint…I’m so excited, I couldn’t sleep…so this, to my words I reside again…the hermit in me…

To you, I share to you my thoughts, does it quench your thirst? This is my world and I’m lending you a window…