Tick tock, says the clock…
Sometimes I wish I have Hiro Nakamura’s power to stop time…My life gets so busy that I don’t have time for life itself…they say I take more than I can chew, well in this fast paced world, that’s the only way to do it I guess, at least that’s the way I know how.
I’ve been surrounded by people with such dedication in what they do and I admire the stamina and staying power they have. I just don’t get how they do it; I get tired just thinking about it. They breathe and live what they do. I would be sleeping and they’d be up and awake thinking of new ideas, I would stop to catch my breath and they’d be doing other things bugging me to get up and about, whew! But I love everything about it; it keeps me alive and inspires me to make something of my life.
It wouldn’t hurt to stop time for a while though, so I can write what I feel, so I can feel what I feel, so I can ponder on life, so I can feel life, so I can smell the roses so they say… other than that I would love it if I can make the time to cook again, to go to the market and see the lush of green piled up on the vegetable stand, to fix up my apartment, to scrub the floors once in while and to clean up all the dust that managed to stick to windows for all the days that I neglect them. I’d also like to get a plant and tend to it, not like the last one I managed to kill out of neglect ☹ I’d love it too if I could just get a whole day to watch a pile of movies, read all the books and magazines that I manage to stock up for years. Then I can push time again, back to all the things I’m doing, and move in my own pace like I didn’t stop at all, it wouldn’t hurt if I’m not going to be left behind. Sigh, maybe it’s all time management, it’s all about organizing and scheduling right. Hmmmm, I wish time would be more extended, so I can accomplish so much without having to miss anything. I wonder how parents do it, it must be really hard,—work, love, life, kids, and to actually leave time for themselves.
Haaay, the perils of growing old, it’s fun though, painful but fun. It feels good to grow up a little, to be responsible in all the actions I take and how I become to the people that surrounds me. It feels good not to whine so much anymore, no use of it anyway…it feels good not to scream when I get agitated, it just adds stress…it feels good to know that I can control all these negativity that I use to entertain, after all bad energy just makes us look older so why waste time fussing about silly little things. I love the tvc I saw the other day, about what stops us, for me, it’s two things, the only enemy in life is time and ourselves… but there’s always a way to get around it…right now, I’m taking the time to breathe, cuz in a while I’ll have to open my eyes and start my day again…tick tock…hmmm gotta get some sleep now, so much to do, so little time…funny, I wonder when I’ll get a break to write here again…