New Year Aftermath

So many things have happened since my new year started, some good some bad…but I feel good and happy even when I’m sick as hell... I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now, coughing like a mad dog, after New Year parties and following drunken birthdays, I got the bug and slowed me down a bit, too bad I got my cousin infected too, after People of the Year party

I had to drag her to the ER with my high hair up and full make up still on...4am–my cousin on the stretcher–me feverish and coughing with high Erykah Badu hair and her bf waiting for those little interns to get us some medical care. We had to freaking wait for two hours before they even tend to us, by then my feverish cousin was getting up already and joking about how our night ended…from couture to the emergency room.

Back home we had to nurse and take care of each other, good thing her bf was there to play resident nurse. It’s zone contagia back in the apartment, I swear its hard getting sick and having no one to take care of you…just when I thought I couldn’t get any thinner there it was staring back at me in the mirror, haggard, all skin and bones with dark circles around the eyes. It’s scary…

I haven’t touched a cigarette for days now cuz of my colds and I just keep loading up on liquids and food…lotsa food…

I wonder where it all goes…I just came back from the ER again today, I had to get my blood tested for any bacterial infection cuz I had recurring fever, they say it’s viral plus I developed an allergy from dust or any airborne pollutants that’s why I’m always coughing. I coughed so hard this morning I spat blood from the scratched walls of my throat. I hope the meds the doctor gave will reduce it already cuz I’m having a hard time fixing my deadlines when I’m sick all the time and can’t even get enough rest I needed.
Anyway, I’m just happy I got my new Mac book delivered already. First of my checklist in 2007 checked, thank God…been craving for it for a long time now, (a loooong sacrificial tedious wait…) When I got it I feel like a mommy who just gave birth to her baby and couldn’t stand leaving it anywhere. It’s so thin and fragile I feel like someone might sit on it or bump it from the table and smash it’s glory to bits…it’s scary sometimes when you get what you want, you work so hard to keep it from harm, especially when you work your ass off to get it–including love and life! O well, I haven’t fully explored its capabilities yet cuz I never had the time but I love its built it webcam, me and my officemates get a kick at taking stupid fotos of us infront of a computer. Though, I was trying to rename it the other day (home name is so long tatumsmacbookpro, like it can’t get any longer) and all my files moved to another dimension. It created a whole new desktop and library into another system, when I only intended to rename it, no matter how many hands looked for it we just couldn’t retrieve the files…weird, had to call technicians to fix it, and even they couldn’t figure it out. Funny how it disappeared when I just pressed what’s on the instruction, unless I’m stupid enough to mess it up. I hope to finish up on the magazine deadlines already so I can start studying how its new system works. Haay techno stress, we have to learn to keep up with it.

Hachuuuu…ehem…me want to get better already, so I can keep up with life as well. So much to do, so little time, and so little energy gurrrr…

I wanna run, I wanna dance, wanna sing my heart out and climb the highest walls, I wanna draw, I wanna scream, I wanna watch TV, wanna watch movies, wanna create so many things and work on so many stuff, buy so many things, cook so many recipes, meet people who’ll light up my dark,
and tick my 101 checklist…I’m happy though that my goals are looking bright, it’s only the start of the year, and most of my to do list are on its way, it’s just that I never have extra time to fill everything in.

It’s sad why so many of us give up on life when there’s so much to do, so many things to see and problems to get fixed... there are also those, like me, who wants to accomplish so much but ended up just sitting here doodling it… I hope not.

I was watching “Limelight” from lifestyle channel the other day, funny how chains of one’s life can lead to another…chance occurrences that fall on our laps everyday and make us who we are today or tomorrow… it’s lovely to think of life like that rather than focusing on the things we regret doing or the predicaments that hurt us the most, those things only pull us down and stops us from moving forward. One, two, step…I love waking up everyday. I hope years and years after this, I’ll still feel the same way…when I turn 30, 40, 50, who knows…it gives me chills but I love a life lived to the fullest…for now have to sleep and slow down so I can have many more tomorrow…

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[Samantha]

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